Sunday, April 19, 2009

Saying Good-bye, Is so hard to do!

I'm finding it harder and harder to say good-bye to my girls and their spouses. I just become a bawl-baby! My emotions,the tenderness of heart and the sensitivity of all things around me is over whelming. About 45 minutes before we were to leave Patxi and Jessica's house, I became withdrawn and quiet. I didn't want to leave. So I removed myself by doing the dishes. I didn't want to say good-bye. Each time Jessy visits, it becomes harder and harder to see her leave. When we were taking family pictures, I was just holding back the tears. I cried half way to the Portland airport where Jillian was to leave on a plane to go back to school. I miss her soooooooo much! I went to hug Jillian and I didn't want to let go. Kenn could tell that I was having a hard time. So he came over to the driver's side after Jillian left and gave me a good long hug, which brought more tears running down my face. You know how hard it is to drive and cry at the same time? I don't think Jen & Nick noticed. I tried to act strong and of course wearing my dark sun glasses helped! At least I got a extra day with Jen & Nick before I have to say good-bye to them. Hopefully that would make it easier when they left. Hello.....it didn't! I thought my heart would break! This week-end was so hard on me. Seeing Jen & Nick get into the car and get ready to leave just made me choke up and cry. I just love my girls and their husbands so much!!!!! I'm so thankful that "families are eternal." If I find this hard to bear, I can't imagine if I didn't have the knowledge! So if I was a little sharp or short during this time, please don't take it personally. I just become so emotional.